As a child I had a great sense of fairness in my mind in the way I thought things worked in the world. For one I was a good hearted kid. I liked people and found comfort and strength in relationships. I was also raised in church. From the pulpit things always seem to turn out right for God’s people by the end of any given sermon. The preacher never hooped and hollered a sad ending when climaxing the point of his message. Then there was Hollywood. In movies and television, the good guys always won at the end. Justice was always served. I recall the first time I saw the good guys ‘lose’ and a bad guy get away was in an episode of “Hill Street Blues.” Though I don’t recall the exact details I do remember feeling jarred emotionally with a sense of loss and injustice. Nowadays that’s pretty common for TV. Seasons 1-5 of “The Wire” crystallized the realities of life more than any other show in television history.
For me there has always maintained this inner struggle between right and wrong, truth and justice, fairness and hardships. All of these factors mentioned above made muttering through life mentally and spiritually difficult many a day. I struggled with questions like why do people hurt others on purpose? Why do good things happen to bad people? Why do bad things happen to the good people? Why would an elected official do evil things to the people he/she serves? Why would a friend betray you or someone hurt you if you gave them your all? All my life I’ve heard that doing the right things, working hard and treating people justly will bring good fortune and a good life. I’m almost 45 years old now and through the study of history, events from around the world and life in general, it feels as if I’ve seen it all in some form or another. And all that I’ve seen show that life is way more complicated than this.
The above mentioned formula didn’t seem to work true to life. And most of my internal struggles have been an attempt to decipher the ways of how I fit in within the schemes of constant contradictions and suffering through good intentions.
It was my counselor and life coach Mrs. Francis Thomas (Miss Francis I call her) who first introduced to me the concept of ‘radical acceptance.’ Sitting in her office she forced me to consider ‘Letting go of fighting reality and accept your situation for what it is.’ Sounds simple doesn’t it? Folks have a term for it nowadays. “It is what it is.” How many times have we heard that one? Taking a closer look however, the concept of truly accepting things as they are is not natural to our culture. There is and always has been a push and pull to try to influence or change reality. And why not? That what this country has been since immigration. People came to this land to be what they wanted and live in a fashion empowered by personal ambition. Those causes weren’t altogether pure either in that often living a chosen life rarely included allowing others to do the same. And so there was and is conflict for the remaining up and comers, even till this day. (See Colonization, Slavery, The fight for Civil Rights and Immigration)
And so we live, we love, we compete, and we pursue a vision not for what we accept but for that which we desire personally, vocationally, culturally, and institutionally.
This is our living.
And yet the midst of pursuits in happiness there is always a fly in the ointment of the oil that flows through what we call life. Suffering.
No matter what we do, suffering seems to be inevitable. I’ve tried to minimize mine as much as possible by following the golden rules. But that’s too simple in the scheme of things. So I sought knowledge. How can I eliminate or reduce suffering?
Buddhist teaching reveals that the very cause of suffering is the attachment to ‘desire’ or craving. The Second Noble Truth for instance include:
The Cause of Suffering– samudaya
The principle cause of suffering is the attachment to “desire” or “craving” (tanha). Both desire to have (wanting) and desire not to have (aversion).
1. Desire for sense-pleasures–kama-tanha
The desire for sense pleasures manifests itself as wanting to have pleasant experiences: the taste of good food, pleasant sexual experiences, delightful music.
2. Desire to become–bhava-tanha
The desire to become is the ambition that comes with wanting attaiments or recognition or fame. It is the craving to “be a somebody”.
3. Desire to get rid of–vibhava-tanha
The desire to get rid of the unpleasant experiences in life: unpleasant sensations, anger, fear, jealousy.
The clinging to desire comes from our experience that short-term satisfaction comes from following desire. We ignore the fact that satisfying our desires doesn’t bring an end to them.
Part of the Third Noble Truth simply says:
The end of suffering is non-attachment, or letting go of desire or craving.
In my spirit I totally understood and resonated with the substance of these words. I sensed a light or a glimmer of hidden wisdom that I had never seen. This was especially enlightening because by nature I am a doer, a man of action. If I want something to be a certain way, I did what I could to make it happen. I used action in an attempt to gain the reaction I desired. (Good deeds, hard work etc.) The thought of letting go of desire seemed to be a game changer. A freeing experience if you will. I started the process of embracing this concept slowly in my life.
Reading this may give the impression that by letting go of desire we are to just stand pat and allow whatever happens to happen in our lives. That brings me to another teaching form Miss Francis. “A life or inner peace will not consist of embracing an all or nothing paradigm.”
My journey of living is a continuous evolution of learning that the colours of life are rarely black and white, but shades of varying schemes that paint the world. If there are no desires, there is no progress. I believe we were created and the Universe calls for us to make contributions towards giving and receiving from the earth, as well as it’s inhabitants. We can’t make a difference without having a ‘desire’ for something better. Our humanity provides that we are creatures with feelings and emotions, as well as creativity and logic. We not only want to survive, but thrive in serving and fulfilling a purpose all the while enjoying pleasure and senses of accomplishment. The key is balancing all of life’s journey with a certain brevity and perspective.
In the bible Paul deals with this dichotomy.
In Philippians 3:14 he says he continues to press toward the mark of the high calling of God in Jesus Christ.
In Philippians 4:11 he says he’s learned to be content with whatever state he’s in.
The reality is that as long as we are living there will always be this struggle in understanding the push and pull of life; What to try to change and what to accept, how to love in the midst of hurt, pain, or rejection; Whether we are indeed living in a season or if it’s within our power to change the climate.
For in our flawed sense of justice through our blurred lenses the wicked do often prosper, good is not always rewarded, the good die young, love is not always returned gracefully. Neither the good nor the bad are always what they seem. And even the very best of us are often guilty of doing to others that which hurt us the most.
I submit that walking in the balance of universal harmony in the midst of it’s seemingly continuous contradictions is impossible for the natural life. Indeed it requires a supernatural experience and existence which must be practiced if not perfected.
We should desire to be significant though not necessarily popular. (Though being significant can bring fame.) By focusing on the process of living as well as the intent and ramifications of our actions rather than the results, in the end, I believe the Universe will balance and pay, and regulate accordingly.
And if not,… well then hey, it is what it is.
Everythings that’s good ain’t good for ya!
My boy Rich told me this recently. I don’t think he originated it but the way he said it showed his southern roots where he probably heard it from his own parents and elders. Anyway, every couple days or so it comes back to me. And I think it’s one of those principles to understand and live by.
We all have blind spots. I certainly have mine. Sometimes when I recognize them I feel like an idiot. Perhaps it’s humbling to recognize my liabilities and limitations. Maybe that’s a good thing. I guess. Just sayin…
How far you go in life depends on your being tender with the young, compassionate with the aged, sympathetic with the striving and tolerant of the weak and strong; because someday in life you will have been all of these. – George Washington Carver (1864-1943)
Knowledge speaks, but wisdom listens – Jimi Hendrix (1942-1979)
Not everything that is faced can be changed.
But nothing can be changed until it is faced. – James Baldwin (1924-1987)
The subject of temptation is a fascinating one to me. As people we are always tempted with something. Normally when the word temptation is used it has to do with a form of the forbidden. For instance if I commit to fasting for a certain amount of time, during that period I will at some point be tempted to eat. I may be on day 3 of a 10 day fast for instance, and all of a sudden it’s free pizza day at work. I can smell it, my stomach is grumbling and my body is craving the cheese and sauce. Now what?
First let’s first define temptation. I didn’t search the dictionary, but for the sake of this post, we will define temptation as: a desire to do or partake in something that is at least temporarily forbidden. (I.e. food when fasting) It is the compromise of the highest form of original intention, infecting personal character and integrity. The core of these temptations stem from three areas: The lust of the flesh, the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life. No temptation will exist without at least one of these at play. Examples:
Lust of the flesh – You know you got a lady or a man – yet you feel tempted to flirt or allow yourself to be flirted with by that attractive person you see at the mall.
Lust of the eyes – While at the same mall you see that outfit that you think is hot. But you know you don’t need that outfit. Furthermore, if you spend that money, you will put yourself behind the 8 ball and it will cost you more than the price of the outfit later.
Pride of Life – Driving from the mall a car cuts you off as you turn to approach the exit. You know the best thing to do is turn the page and be thankful there was no accident. Walk away. But something inside says you should give that fool a piece of your mind.
These are just some general examples. We are constantly bombarded with temptations through life’s experiences as we just covered. We are also tempted through media and advertisement. Even the way your local grocery store shelves its products is a way to tempt you to spend more money on the most expensive products.
I am learning that what we do with temptation is what makes or breaks us in daily life. Do we face temptation head on or do we slide backwards into its cunning and deceptive ways? Recognizing temptation is the first key. So often we are bombarded with images and situations, I’m not sure we realize how much we face on the day to day.
The best way to deal with temptation is to confront it head on. By that I mean we shouldn’t play ourselves into acting like we aren’t tempted when we really are. If you are tempted to do something, just admit it. Its not a sign of weakness but of strength to face the facts of self evaluation. How many times have we put ourselves in bad situations because we were in denial about what was going on inside our hearts? Only to find later we are filled with regrets of personal failings. Once we face the reality of what is tempting us, next decide what to do about it. If we take immediate action, we are far more likely to overcome that temptation. If we allow the imagination to fester and permeate our psyche, we are more likely to fall into said temptation. Excuse me for putting it this way, but temptation is a subtle mother-fucker! And you can’t be pussying around with it either! It has to be handled and dealt with head on or it will get you caught up with the quickness.
For each person it’s important to know what it is you really want out of life. What is the level of happiness you want to achieve? What kind of house do you want to live in? How healthy would you like to be and what kind of body do you want to have? What kind of relationships do you want with your significant other, family and friends? What kind of impact would you like to make in this life? What do you need to do to make that impact? What tenancies and weaknesses do you have that would prevent you from living your best life. How far are you willing to go to maximize your potential and live your best life? Answer these questions and you are on your way to living life in a real way.
There is no shame in being tempted. Jesus himself was tempted. It will be an ongoing happening for the rest of our lives. The man/woman of the highest level of integrity will recognize self tendencies and take appropriate action in order to ensure that life is lived with the greatest amount of freedom without the constant weight of consequences from bad decisions. If our eyes are wide open to who we are and what is before us, we can use temptation and our success/failings as a barometer to measure personal growth. The thing about temptation is this – being tempted never made anyone do anything they didn’t want to do. No matter what temptations we face in life, we always retain the final rights of choice. To not recognize temptation sets us up to merely fall over and over again into cycles of failure. Understanding and self- knowing will help us make the right choices that we are willing to live with.
Whatever you do with temptation is up to you. Just keep your eyes open and take responsibility for what happens.
I remember being in a Christian men’s meeting – and we were discussing God’s ways and what we know to be His will. The leader spoke of how some things are just givens that we can know for sure when it comes to what He wants from us. Like for instance we know God’s will is not for us to kill anyone. I having the inquisitive mind that I have – being the antagonist for deeper through – I posed a question as to how are we to really know that to be His will in every situation. I mean after all we know that one of the Ten Commandments talk about not killing or murdering anyone – and yet according to scripture many times God endorsed and even ordered the killings of tens of thousands – many including women, children and animals. As a matter of fact, King Saul was demoted from his throne in lieu of David because he did not kill everything he was supposed to – and yet David was NOT demoted after he took Uriah’s wife and had the man intentionally killed as a way to cover up her pregnancy. This is not to say that David didn’t suffer – as he lost the son who was conceived. But then he had another one named Solomon – who built the temple that David was not allowed to build because of the blood on his hands.
Notice that Solomon had several hundred wives and concubines – God never said a word to him about it. Instead he warned him against marrying women who had other gods not associated with the God David taught him about. In this case the issue in the scripture is not the amount of wives or concubines – it was their religious preference that God called into question. Many men had multiple wives and according to the scriptures God found these things perfectly acceptable. When I posed this question about how we now tout God’s will about marriage being one man and one woman – how God ordered hits against the enemies of Israel including children – the answer I was given was that, “That was the old testament.” I asked for an explanation seeing that the bible says that God is the same yesterday, today and forever – the moral dilemma even for the old testament seems antithetical to anything we know of today. If David were King of Israel today and the news of he and Bathsheba hit CNN – any preacher, priest or rabbi would be hard pressed to accept his moral failings, or invite him to speak as God’s representative. As a matter of fact they would seek to have him ousted – and yet not only did God keep him on the throne, there is a scripture that says David was a man after God’s own heart. We Christians love David because he was quick to repent and he gives us hope within our own moral downfalls – and yet the same Christians wanted to stone Bill Clinton and toss his behind clean out of the White House for the same thing – minus the pregnancy and murder.
Speaking of David – the bible says that he and Saul’s son Jonathan shared a love that was deeper than that of a love between a man and a woman. What is that about? Did David have a little sugar in his tank too? Did he and Jonathan practice a little bow and arrow in the wilderness while getting to know one another? Who knows? I certainly don’t… and the truth is nobody does. Republicans love Abraham Lincoln and say that they are “The Party of Lincoln.” And yet a simple study will find that Lincoln slept with a man nightly. This is not a commentary regarding an opinion of homosexuality – these are just questions I asked in a bible study class. I didn’t profess to have the answers – and I didn’t suspect any of the committed Christian men in the meeting could produce them either. But what was most sad, is that they were so closed minded and fearful of their theology being shot to hell in a hand basket – they would not even discuss the issues. I felt to grapple with these matters would create stimulating discussion and debate – which stimulate the mind to learn and get a bit closer to what the truth may be in these matters – regardless of whether we actually got the answers as gospel.
So where does that lead us? As much as I search for the highest form of truth – I understand and acknowledge as the scripture says – I know in part – I understand in part. What I know about my Creator is in part. I have lived 41 1/2 years – I can’t make one tree – one bird etc. I can’t explain the universe or how the human body and spirit live together. The world functioned before I showed up and I suspect it will go on without me. And even what I feel I know now is subject to modification.
Even if we were to get the whole truth from our Creator who formed the entire universe – who is to say we could comprehend or understand it? Puuuulease! There is not that much intellect in the world – for intellect is limited and some things are caught and not taught. AND we are created beings – we have creative ability but to brag that we are carriers of the complete and divine understanding on par with an everlasting spiritual greatness we have come to understand as God is tremendously short-sighted, arrogant and plain stupid at best.
That’s my take – what’s yours?
Growing up in the Christian faith community “confession” was a prevalent teaching among the congregations I associated with. The faith movement was based highly on words – ala God created the Heavens and Earth with words… Jesus is called The Living Word – There are scriptures that say life and death are in the power of the tongue – and that those of the faith should call things that be not as though they were and so forth. Today many Christians are very careful about what they say. They do not want to claim negativity. I recall seeing people appear to have a cold, and as he/she coughs and sneeze say in the next breath – “I’m not going to claim sickness. I am perfectly fine.”
I can understand the thinking – I do believe the mind is one of the most powerful forces in the universe and the words we say on an ongoing basis make a difference in our state of being. However, sometimes I think we take it too far. In other words there is a difference between faith and denial. One does not have to deny facts to in order to seek out and confess a higher truth. For there is a difference in facts and truth. I would define it this way. Dictionary.com says of a fact in short;
Fact – Knowledge or information based on real occurrences
But truth is as I define it for the purposes of this post…
Truth – the highest form of reality – an ultimate universal treaty
Truth would not deny a fact but would supersede it. So for a person was sick or depressed and yet understand that their ultimate state should not be sickness or depression – it would not be best to deny what is evident. But yet what is evident is not necessarily the last word. Facts are outside manifestations, but truth is ultimate destination. So one could admit to the fact that he/she is afflicted with sickness, and yet not deny the ultimate purpose and destination of wellness. Facts are temporary and yet if to US those facts become truth – then they become one in the same.
Ultimately people live by and make decisions based on the truth as they know it – not the facts. For example, I recall driving my car and running out of gas with money in my pocket before. Well I knew by intellect or ‘fact’ that the car could indeed run out of gas – and yet the ‘truth’ is I didn’t really believe it or else I would have stopped and added gas to the car before it happened. As the hand slipped to the left of the ‘E’ I thought I had more and more time. Well once that happened to me once – it has never happened again. The potential for walking because a reality to me – especially cause it was like 15 degrees below zero that night.
Simple as it may seem we all live by the truth that we know in our hearts – not the facts that we learn. Or else we all by way of knowledge would live and do everything we know to do. We wouldn’t abuse our bodies with alcohol and drugs. We wouldn’t eat the wrong things if we really “knew” that those things were killing us. Obviously knowledge is not what we lack. Our personal realization of “truth” is what guides us in the long run.
I submit that our task is to recognize and acknowledge the obvious. We have needs, we are faulty, we have potential to be great and regardless there will be the best and worst of times. At the same time we should strive to learn that which is true – that which surpasses facts for it is by those principles that we are led most.
Part 2 Next…. “Absolute Truth” – fact or fiction